It has been many years now since this gorgeous lady entered the twilight zone. She is now slowly fading away.
There are no winners with dementia. Not family watching from the outside nor the person living more and more on the inside.
Even though it has been a slow process, watching the footprints fade back into the sand until they are gone is hard. It is harder than I thought it would be.
Unlike footprints though that leave no trace, she has had 3 children who themselves have lovely families. Now we are parents, we totally appreciate the effort she put in and the wonderful memories, traditions and occasions enjoyed. We see with adult eyes.
Now we are parents it is too late to tell her how wonderful she was as a Mummy, how much we know she gave to us. I hope she knows and although we do tell her now, it is kind of too late.
Just thought you might want to know
Ciao for now
just Martha xx
I am going through that slow waltz now with my mum - it isn't fair on anyone involved.
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